My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
我的思想如万花筒一般迅速闪现
Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
努力模糊所有的颜色，然后我便看到了从前
The last mistake, the choice I made
那是上一次犯的错和我所做出的抉择
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
盯着镜子里的自己，我无比自责
Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
有时候，我会很恐惧我内心的一些念头
Nowhere to hide inside my mind
甚至找不到地方去隐藏它们
I'm scared that you'll compare and
我怕你会计较
I'll look a lifetime past repair
所以我花掉我从前的快乐让一切变得更好
I second guess myself to death,
我第二次死亡的时候
I re-solicit every step
我一遍遍扪心自问
What if my words are meaningless?
如果我说的话再无意义会怎样？
What if my heart's misleading this?
如果我的心迷失在此又会怎样？
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
我试图捕捉每一分钟，假装自己本来就拥有过
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
试图隐藏起所有记忆让它们能安安静静地陪我
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当我心中那些清晨的希望开始褪色消失
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我不敢让黑暗抓住机会侵蚀掉我
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
而清晨的希望让我觉得反抗黑暗是如此值得
I will not be giving in tonight
所以我今夜也不会向黑夜投降
When I'm old and grey, or thirty,
当我日渐老去，青丝不再，抑或步入而立之年
or whatever happens first,
不管哪件事先降临
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
我都会需要你来让我知道，我没有浪费一丁点
Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
甚至，当我的生活最后沦为只剩我孤身一人的时候也一样
Like never let you get a word in,
尽管就像你从来没存在过
while I dissect my mental health
当我细细剖析我的心、我的精神....
Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
这些都不重要，重要的是，有太多的迹象可循
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
我也实在不清楚我是疯了还是失眠过度
Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
如今“疯”是种潮流，小孩儿们无脑追逐并且喜欢诊断自己疯的程度
Trade up made up epidemics,
攀比是种病
pass around prescription pills
不能放弃治疗
But my disorder can't be cured
但是我内心的凌乱却不能被治愈
by a bottle, blade, or dose
不论是用一剂药，一瓶药，还是用刀片
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
自厌和自私一直将我禁锢
But I don't wanna let you see that,
而我不想让你看见我这样
I don't want my friends to know
我也不愿意让我朋友知道这些
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
自厌和自私无时不刻不在跟着我
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当我心中那些清晨的希望开始褪色消失
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我不敢让黑暗抓住机会侵蚀掉我
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
而晨间的希望让我觉得反抗黑暗是如此值得
I will not be giving in tonight
所以我今夜也不会向黑夜投降
Try as I might to keep it together
而不管我多努力
Why is recovery taking forever
为什么恢复需要这么长的时间
Fool the whole world, just until I get better
我想骗了整个世界，直到我慢慢好起来
I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
但我却怕被永远当成骗子
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
我不停想知道我脑子里到底哪儿不对了
I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
我不是一定要明白，但是今晚我希望我能知道答案
All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
所有我不能搪塞过去的痛苦都不会消失
All the the secrets silenced by the shame
所有秘密因为羞愧而变得沉默
Don't make me say it
不要让我开口
Don't make me say it
不要让我说
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当我心中那些清晨的希望开始褪色消失
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我不敢让黑暗抓住机会侵蚀掉我
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
而晨间的希望让我觉得反抗黑暗是如此值得
I will not be giving in tonight
所以我今夜也不会向黑暗投降